MEMOIRS OF ASYRAF

kegembiraan paling tinggi semasa balik kampung raya tahun ini ialah apabila kami sekeluarga dapat solat berjemaah bersama-sama.. tak tergambar perasaan di hati selepas selesai memberi salam, membaca doa, dan kami bersalaman penuh kasih sayang.. sebelum ini masing-masing lebih gemar solat bersendirian.. sekarang solat berjemaah sudah lebih kerap termasuk subuh.. satu perubahan.. usrah kecil bersama dengan adik-adik pun dah dapat dibuat.. maka dengan serba sedikit pendedahanku di Mesir dan kekuatan yang aku kumpulkan di sana akan ku pimpin keluarga ini.. selagi ada kudrat dan masa bersama mereka.. menjadikan kepulangan seribu satu makna.. ^_^

يأيها الذين ءامنوا قوا أنفسكم وأهليكم نارً
Wahai orang beriman, jagalah diri kamu dan ahli keluarga kamu daripada api neraka (At-Tahrim ayat 6) terangi Nur-Mu atas keluarga ini

Ya Allah.. dan janganlah kau sesatkan kami setelah memberikan kami petunjuk
-amin-

27 malam dalam ramadan sudah pun berlalu
Moga-moga ramadan di Mesir ini telah dapat aku manfaatkan sepenuhnya. Mengharapkan diri semakin dekat dengan Ilahi. Panggilan pulang sudah tiba setelah 1 tahun setengah lamanya..

terima kasih mesir kerana telah banyak mengajar aku dalam banyak perkara. Terima kasih kerana telah menjadikan diri aku lebih sempurna.. tahun yang paling banyak cabaran, dugaan dan pengajaran berbanding tahun-tahun sebelum ini.. dalam segala kesusahan, dan dalam segala kegembiraan..

dari segi keputusan peperiksaan mungkin tidaklah sehebat orang lain.. tidaklah sehebat dulu.. tetapi dari segi lain dah banyak lagi benda yang aku terima.. banyak lagi benda untuk digembirakan.. Alhamdulillah atas segalanya..

akan pulang semula dengan semangat yang baru dan lebih kuat dalam bidang medik, lebih jauh dalam bidang tarbiyyah dan dakwah insyaAllah

Seronok tengok ikhwah seluruh dunia berbincang, bekerja dan bergerak dalam intonasi yang sama. Betullah takrifan Imam Hassan Al-Banna dalam mendefinisikan kekuatan
1) Iman dan Taqwa
2) Wehdah (kesatuaan) atau Ukhuwwah
3) Barulah senjata

Motivasi di kala kepenatan dan jawapan bagi segala kerisauan
Kekuatan itu ada
Bila Allahu Ghayahtuna mengatasi segala-galanya





Membangun Umat Beragenda 
Melayu Sepakat Islam Berdaulat

Bergerak dan terus bergerak

I remember when I was young
Perhaps, I was the most hardest of my siblings to handle
The one that cause mom most of her troubles

I remember when I was in nursery school
Mom had to wait outside the classroom door the entire learning hour
Had she move one step away, I would be crying and the teachers couldn't do a thing
the only cure for me was for her to be back

I remember when I was standard four and refuse to go to school
Mom dragged me in the car by force and sent me in front of the school gate
She waited for me to step in school and start class
Yet there I was running away
She had to chase me back and had no choice but to bring me along with her to work

I remember when I was in form 1
Had my leg broke
Wearing a cast for 5 weeks long
She had to wait outside of school and pick me up everyday
Still I took my sweet time enjoying life after school hours with friends
Being late to show up in front of the school gate

I smoked once.. Being involve in a gang fight

Things I did was frustrating
The burden I place was suffocating
Things to embarrassing, to shameful to tell
She was a single mom and worked a full-time job
Having four children going to four different schools
Still manage to cook and pick her children home
Yet I had never been the best of son to her
Even being all grown up behaving more or less the same

Just another child imperfect and full of sins
I'm sorry for the way I was, and the way I am
Forever trying to be the person you want me to be
In the end, just another troublesome kid =(

There is this story about a man name Hasan Ath-Thawil, who was a farmer, registering his name as a volunteer in an expedition to war against Israel. He left behind his family, his farm, and all sort of things he loved in the cause of Allah. And not only that, he even sold his buffalo (which is for a farmer considered as an asset to trade in agriculture) to buy weapon in terms to defend the holy land of Palestina. When Ahmad Al- Abbas the district chief said : O Hasan, leave the buffalo for your family, you have enough sacrifice yourself and putting your life on the line. It is the duty of others who do not struggle with his life to carry out sacrifice in terms of properties.

Hasan being someone who really understands the religion answered : Didn't Allah Almighty mention in the Quran :

''strive with your wealth and your lives in the way of Allah''

did you ever forget about the verse :

"Verily Allah have purchased from the believers, themselves and their property by providing heaven for them. "(At-Tawbah: 111)

Do you mean we will gain something without paying the price?

* In times I have been struck by dilemma.. to learn more about Islam, and give in more towards it teaching or commit more in terms of academics. I have always been on the back foot ever since I got to know its importance.. Feels like compared to anyone else, I still have so much to learn and improve.. I want to learn more, and work more for the good of others. Especially the ones I love. But at the same instance, It is also a must for me to be excellent in studies. To be a medical student and doctor people looked up too. At time when I was doing well in ''tarbiyyah & dakwah'', my studies let me down. At time when I was outstanding in my studies, 'tarbiyyah & dakwah' seems a little lacking.. if only one could be excellent in everything that easy.. For every good things there will always be prices to pay. Towards a successful doctor and daie..